My First Yom Kippur

Sep 28, 2020

It began at 10:00 am EST.  Anxious to learn why the rabbi had had such a sense of urgency about attendance, I secluded myself away from the family and watched with my full attention. By the time it ended, I felt like I’d been punched in the gut by Mohammed Ali.

Dang it.

We, the collective “world we,” are facing a huge dilemma … wait … not “a” dilemma. More like “the ultimate dilemma.”

Which reminds me (thank God for the short rabbit trail). Have you seen The Social Dilemma yet? It’s a recent Netflix documentary initiated by a former Google guy. It’s about the (admittedly) out of our control metamorphosis of the ubiquitous social media perception manipulation engines running wild in our world, gaslighting the populous while creating the richest half-dozen companies in human history. Pretty scary stuff.

At one point, some old-guy sitting on a speaker’s panel was shown rudely shaking his head, scowling at the words coming from the Google guy. In protest of the alarm being rung by the Google guy, the pompous putz dismissed the concern by likening the social media induced destruction of our once relatively civil and sane society … to the impact televisions had when first introduced in the late 50’s/early 60’s. What an idiot.

Thanks for indulging that. I’m in a perpetual state of frustration right now and had to let that one out.

So, back to this morning’s Yom Kippur celebration service. It was a real barn burner. I have to hand it to rabbi; at least he didn’t pull any punches. Personally, I prefer to know the severity of the problem upfront, even if it tempts me toward the tranquilizer genre of prescription therapies. That’s what they call it, right? Prescription therapies? I’ve never had any dependency issues despite my mother’s life long habits, but hey, why not see what her fuss was about?

Seriously though, something shifted this morning. I feel as if I’ve entered into a penultimate state of clarity about myself. Not quite crystal, but enough to feel a fully weighted and foreboding fear of the path that’s been set before me.

Yes … Rabbi had many things to share, but the two things he said at the end remain, hours later.

First, he said that America better wake up before the end of the year or there will be destruction like we’ve never seen before. Now, I’m new to this rabbi and to the beliefs of the Messianic Jews, and he may well be a nut … I don’t know for sure.

But I don’t think so.

And it’s probably not a good gamble.

Second, it’s time to make things right with others. If there are any strongholds in your life (resentment, bitterness, jealousy, envy, hatred, etc.), it’s time. It’s time to finally deal with the stinky stale life things you’ve been avoiding, hoping in futility that the problems would go away and no longer affect you. Sorry … never works.

I know. Damn it.

Here’s a little it’s hurts you more than it hurts me help. This is the prayer rabbi recited at the close of the service. It will assist you in bringing the stale-stinky to light so that you can start clearing your plate … so that you can be a part of the big awakening in America.

 

AHL CHAIT – FOR THE SIN

 

Complete Jewish Bible (Page 200-204)

 

    • For the sin we have committed against You willingly or under compulsion, and for the sin we have committed against You by hardening our hearts.
    • For the sin we have committed against You by acting without thinking, and for the sin we have committed against You by speaking perversely (corruptly).
    • For the sin we have committed against You through sexual impurity, and for the sin we have committed against You secretly and openly.
    • For the sin we have committed against You knowingly and deceitfully, and for the sin we have committed against You by offensive speech.
    • For the sin we have committed against You by wronging our neighbor and for the sin we have committed against You by sinful meditation of the heart.
    • For the sin we have committed against You by lewd association, and for the sin we have committed against You by insincere confession.
    • For the sin we have committed against You by spurning our parents and teachers, and for the sin we have committed against You in presumption or error.
    • For the sin we have committed against You by violence, and the sin we have committed against You by profaning (abusing) Your Name.
    • For the sin we have committed against You by unclean speech, and for the sin we have committed against You by foolish talk.
    • For the sin we have committed against You through the evil inclination, and for the sin we have committed against You knowingly and unknowingly.
    • For the sin we have committed against You by denying and lying, and for the sin we have committed against You by bribery.
    • For the sin we have committed against You by scoffing (mocking), and for the sin we have committed against You by slander.
    • For the sin we have committed against You in our business dealings, and for the sin we have committed against You in eating and drinking.
    • For the sin we have committed against You by demanding usurious interest, and for the sin we have committed against You by arrogance and pride.
    • For the sin we have committed against You by speaking gossip, and for the sin we have committed against You by wanton (shameless) glances.
    • For the sin we have committed against You with haughty eyes, and for the sin we have committed against You by insolence (rudeness).
    • For the sin we have committed against You by rejecting responsibility, and for the sin we have committed against You by contentiousness (arguing).
    • For the sin we have committed against You by ensnaring our neighbor, and for the sin we have committed against You by envy.
    • For the sin we have committed against You by levity, and for the sin we have committed against You by being stiff-necked.
    • For the sin we have committed against You by running to do evil, and for the sin we have committed against You by tale bearing.
    • For the sin we have committed against You by vain oaths, and for the sin we have committed against You by hatred without a cause.
    • For the sin we have committed against You by breach of trust, and for the sin we have committed against You with confusion of mind.

 

For all these sins, O God of forgiveness, forgive us and pardon us in Yeshua’s Name.

 

Shalom

 

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